I had my Babygirl moment and slept with the intern on New Year’s Day. (Technically he’s not the intern but the working student, but let’s keep calling him The Intern as it’s what has been used to describe his grade within the firm). This is how I started the new year. We had been flirting with each other for the past two years, ever since he started working in my department. He was not part of my team and left the firm on Dec 31, so I keep telling myself it is morally not that wrong of me to have done this. He’s also 6 years younger than me and insanely good-looking.

The intern and I developed this weird friendship over the past two years. We would constantly keep each other company during lunch breaks and even during working hours he would always ask me to accompany him to the kitchen or to get coffee. The past couple of months it got more intense and we got to a point where we ended up texting everyday and he would also call me quite often after work and we would chat for an hour. He was really sweet and even though I never fell in love with him during this time, I ended up feeling this intense attraction towards him. I could tell by the way he looks at me that he really, really likes me. Heck, everyone and their mom could tell and kept on asking me about what’s going on between us. Nothing. Until New Year’s.

He invited me and my friend over to a house party at his friends place. I had been out drinking with him and his guy friends a few times by now and every time we went, something almost happened. I never went through with it, though, because he was still at the firm and I was scared people would find out.

At the house party he finally kissed me. And he was truly the best kisser I have ever experienced. I still think about how amazing it felt making out with him. I then went over to his place and throughout the entire experience, he made me feel so wanted and appreciated like none of the other men I had dated in 2025 have. I am still catching myself daydreaming about how it was to sleep with him because of how wanted he made me feel.

This entire experience also made me realize what I want in a relationship and that the guy I had been seeing prior simply wasn’t it. I made the right decision in breaking it off in December, because I had a gut feeling that this wasn’t it.

Unfortunately the intern now left for his semester abroad and I will not be able to see him until September. I hope I don’t end up yearning all those months, wondering if he’s meeting new girls over there and forgetting all about me. I’m not cutout for this casual hookup lifestyle because I always catch feelings after having sex with someone. Although I am really grateful it happened, I don’t think I should pursue casual flings anymore.

Let’s see what 2026 has in store.