I have been struggling with my weight all my life. When I was a teenager I did my first diet – The Military Diet. You basically just eat a small piece of cheese, drink black coffee and eat a cracker, from what I remember. The second extreme diet I tried was drinking Almased for 2 weeks straight, right before prom. I had a crush on this guy and I wanted to look good for him. I managed to lose a good amount of weight by starving, but he ended up dancing with some other girl.
calories 1500 kcal approx. (alright but it’s only 1PM), hours spent watching tv 10h (bad bc I’m not done yet), human interactions 0
I remember back when I started this blog I used to format my entries like Bridget Jones as she partially inspired me to create this blog. Looking back I can’t believe redvelvet.cc has been online since 2017 – mind you I have been blogging way before that as well. When I was younger it started out with a classic diary in form of a notebook and a pen and that slowly transformed into an online journal. Kind of cool that I never stopped this habit of writing down random thoughts.
Today, just like yesterday, I am home alone, watching TV all day while simultaneously browsing through the internet on my Mac. Although yesterday my cat was keeping me company, today he’s sleeping in a different room.. probably because I annoyed him too much. I read that cats can hold a grudge for up to 16 hours.
I keep telling myself I’m not really sure why I’m in such an anti-social mood but if I’m being honest to myself I know that it’s because I don’t feel comfortable in my body right now and just want to hide away. Why is eating my favorite activity?
So here I am, spending my entire weekend alone, with no plans and basically no human interaction at all. To be fair, I am still on my period and that makes me extra cranky and sad.
