… I realised that I just want to be left the fuck alone. I don’t want male energy in my life, I just want to be by myself. I haven’t been this happy in over a year and it’s all thanks to me not allowing men into my life anymore.
Granted, I did have my first One Night Stand (probably) on Friday, but it’s not something that’s going to repeat itself, I think. I want to take the time to focus on myself and work towards my goals. Any relationship to a guy would sabotage this and I just don’t want think about anyone but myself. I feel like your 20s are the time where you figure yourself out and the relationships you start during your 20s don’t last 99% of the time. Why waste your time? Why waste energy on a person that’s going to hurt and keep you from doing what you really want. I never want to be co-dependent on anyone ever again.
Starting next week we are officially starting treatment for my Eating Disorder. I feel like I already had a mini breakthrough today and I’m excited to share it with my therapist. Honestly, taking care of myself is the only thing I care about at this point.